I didn’t want to write this blog post. But desperate times…
When you sign yourself up to a 30 day writing workshop where they kick you out if you don’t publish 500 words every day you go through a series of complex feelings. Couldn’t I just write 500 words a day anyway? I guess they have cool coaches there too, it’ll be nice to meet them and learn from what they have to say.
But sometimes deadlines can be the worst. Inevtivably there will be a day where all your drafts feel like trash and you can’t bring yourself to hit publish on any of them.
On that day you’ll just have to sit down and right something.
You overhear conversations in the background. You are typing in to your phone because your laptop has crashed. Straight into wordcounter.net because you will send that thing off as soon as you hit 500.
The panic rises in your chest. It is 11:55. You should not be cutting it this close.
In the background they are talking about Nietzsche and Freud. You’d rather be writing about Nietzsche and Freud.
This was always your backup plan today, but it even more painful than you imagined. Maybe writing a draft would have been easier.
What will you do if it gets to 11:59 and you haven’t written 500 words yet? I guess just post anyway and face the consequences! Maybe just write shorter words. Consequences is a lot of seconds to waste for just one.
Inside you a voice is screaming. Just write something. You do this every morning. You write three pages by hand. Why not just put them into your blog?
I wanted to write about second order cybernetics, about the fix points of human sciences. But I didn’t feel ready. I could not find a fix point between my own judgement and the words I wanted to produce.
11:58. What more is there to say. Just say something even if it’s that you have nothing to say Just say something even if it’s that you have nothing to say
Just say something even if it’s that you have nothing to say
Just say something even if it’s that you have nothing to say
Just say something even if it’s that you have nothing to say
Just say something even if it’s that you have nothing to say
Just say something even if it’s that you have nothing to say
Just say something even if it’s that you have nothing to say
Just say something even if it’s that you have nothing to say
Just say something even if it’s that you have nothing to say
Just say something even if it’s that you have nothing to say
Just say something even if it’s that you have nothing to say
Just say something even if it’s that you have nothing to say
Just say something even if it’s that you have nothing to say
Just say something even if it’s that you have nothing to say
Just say something even if it’s that you have nothing to say
Just say something even if it’s that you have nothing to say
Just say something even if it’s that you have nothing to say
Just say something even if it’s that you have nothing to say
Just say something even if it’s that you have nothing to say
Just say something even if it’s that you have nothing to say
Just say something even if it’s that you have nothing to say
Your heart is beating. You hit publish and keep writing right up to the deadline. You copied this post into the blog Ui 15 seconds ago. How many words was it? I hope it was 500